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How Did I Find Myself Here

FILTER ME THROUGH YOU

If I can't have you
Or anything that reminds me of you
I'll carry on
So you might miss me when I'm gone.

I'm in the ether
It's now or neither
Filter me through you

If you go away
Or anywhere that I can't stay
Slice myself thin
So I can live beneath your skin

Lost in the zone
Surrounded and alone
Filter me through you

GLIDE

At this place where I’m hanging now
Corruptible, destructible
Capable of breaking of being broken
I may not be ready for what you’ve got to give
Tethered by reality for so many years
I’m flying high and not ready to touch the ground

I just glide
I may never get higher
I don’t have to come down

I’m not bound by rules, I’m not corrupted by code
Or bothered by civility or norms
Or anything that kept me up night after night after night
Older than I was when I made the rules
That held me down
I don’t think I’ll be traveling down that road again

I just glide
I may never get higher
I don’t have to come down

I drilled a hole in my wall to see you from the other side
I keep you close but set you loose
As I see fit to choose
Go where you want to go, do what you need to do
Strip yourself naked against the sky
I might be there to catch you when you fall

I just glide
I may never get higher
I don’t have to come down

I just glide
Higher and higher
I don’t have to come down
I don’t have to come down

OUT OF MY HEAD

Cornered, alone
Beaten down and confused
Slaughtered and tripped out
One eye on the exit sign
With more than I could use

You might say I was stuck on a pin
With only one way to go
Not in, not in.
I had to get out, way way out
Beyond the pale
Strictly no sale.

Just to get out of my head
Anything to take me out of my head.

My friends were worried
But what could I do?
I might have said that I
Was worried about them too.

What I had to do,
I understood
I went higher and higher
And it was good
It was very very good

Just to get out of my head
Anything to take me out of my head

80 WEST

Hand clutched rigid on a steering wheel
Whiskey underneath the seat, carefully concealed
Odometer has turned over 3 times
But I only gotta make it across the county line

Pennsylvania stretches out a mighty long ways
Keep it low speed so it feels like days
Got the FM radio on the left
Some talk show zombie boring me to death

Something happened out on 80 West
I can't figure--I can't figure it out.

Had me a dream for 30 years
But it changes just as easily as shifting gears
The only thing that scares me more than getting caught
Is to stop and think about the lies I bought

Something happened out on 80 West
Cars lined up on the frontage road
Something happened out on 80 West
I can't figure--I'm trying to figure it out.

Something happened out on 80 West
Around the moment when everything just snapped
Something happened out on 80 West
I'm not turning back
Something happened out on 80 West
One puzzle solved and another one blown sky high
Something happened out on 80 West
I can't figure--I can't figure it out.

LIKE MARY

Soon as the pills started kicking in
She decided to go for a drive
The sun was shining through the afternoon haze
And she felt more alive

She had pictures of her children
She remembered all of their names
She knew it was much better for them now
But it hurt just the same

And there's so many reasons for everything
And people who just talk without listening
And people who spend their whole lives waiting
Like Mary

Put 50 cents in the jukebox
A-11 came up
So many years trying to do her best
Was it really enough?

He loved her like a sister
He loved her like a mom
He remembered what it was to fall in love
And then he was gone

And there's so many reasons for everything
And people who just talk without listening
And people who spend their whole lives waiting
Like Mary

In her dreams there were people watching
As they lowered her into the ground
In her dreams she was lost at sea
And never found

In her dreams she found another lover
Who never knew her before
In her dreams she was beautiful
Lying on the floor

And there's so many reasons for everything
And people who just talk without listening
And people who spend their whole lives waiting
Like Mary

THE CIRCLE

I found a way to slow it down
I was twisting all the knobs
And grinding gears in to the dust
Of smoke that covered up the corridors of time
Aiding and abetting an escape
I thought was mine and only mine
Where no one's standing guard
Or dishing dirt and naming names
The past is easier to bend
I found a way to slow it down

I've got a few tricks up my sleeve
In case the spark recedes
I'll draw a circle around the border and perimeter of time
Of motivation and sensation and the walls that I can't climb
I'm standing still and letting go
At a speed that I can't know
And I don't even try to pretend or comprehend
That the circle never ends

And the circle never ends
The circle never ends
The line distorts before it bends
The fissure never mends
The point where it suspends
And the circle never ends

And the circle never ends
The circle never ends
The path, it dips and then descends
The straightest line deceives, detains
Delineates and then extends
And the circle never ends

HOW DID I FIND MYSELF HERE

A prodigal son
Who could not go on
How did I find myself here?

Opened wide
And I swallowed the tide
How did I find myself here?

But I could not conceive
What I could hardly believe
So I just had to leave

I'm wondering who
Put a spell on me and you
How did I find myself here?

Tripped up by my own game
So I put my finger to the flame
How did I find myself here?

But I just didn't know
What I'd laid out below
So I knew I had to go
I had to go.

An impossible tide
So I stepped right inside
How did I find myself here?

Refugee
Who could not see
How did I find myself here?

But I could hardly believe
What I could not conceive
So I knew I had to leave
I had to leave

KENDRA'S DREAM

I defy expectation,
habit, law and repetition.
I keep having the same dream.

Lock of night is turned by this key.
My hermit mind is not the same.
Note the signs, fly time and space then,
see new worlds formed by dreaming race.

Close my eyes, vow to be bold
traveling to the underworld.
I keep having the same dream.
I keep having the same dream.
It's a beautiful dream.